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you never listen [Jan. 5th, 2006|07:15 pm]
Holly
You never listen
And today i wish you would have,
other than hurting me, you never listen to me.
I am sick of this...
You spin around me in circle and yet i find i alway must forgive you
though if i had my way i would never listen to you.
I am sick of you.
You make me look like such a fool...
But you never heard my side so who do i think is the real fool?
This is the way that it is.
and though it hurts like hell things have to stay this way...
I wish i could get out of this...
But though i may wish to i know i never will..
I'm not happy and what you put me through on new years was a night mare...
I can't beleive you...
You have such a way of making me feel like such a fucking whore...
I said stop, you said go...
and now i live in regret..
This wasn't the way it was last time what happened?
what did i do wronge?
Why did you slide your hand on my head and make me go down on you?
I said i didn't want....
But you didn't listen to me...
You never do...
Now.. my mother knows... And everyone looks at me as if i am a whore...
maybe i am?
I know a few that would agree with this statement...
You made me feel like this... it isn't fare...
Why? why???
You wouldn't move your hand... i gaged...
on the whole entire plane ride i felt like throwing up..
and when i got home i did....
I can't beleive this shit...
I never thought you would do this to me of all people...
why? why?
You didn't listen you never do...
I said stop and you said go...
so forget it... i am just a fool
Don't cha know...



New years eve... this was what happened and this happened a few other night where i was down in florida... i can't leave him so don't say i should... but i am so lost... people now hate me for not hanging out with them... but i was trying to recover from what happend... this isn;t the last of what happend there was ALOT more... but i can't say some of the rest im not ready to...
don't worry i wasn;t raped...
But... whatever...

and to all of you i didn;t hang out with while i was down there...
im sorry... I had a horrbile time and Alan and I almost split like 7 times...
so hate to break it to all of you that i didn;t see this was on my list of things to take of while i was down there...
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(no subject) [Jan. 4th, 2006|07:57 pm]
Holly
[mood |crushedcrushed]
[music |apc]

(VICTORIA)

Thanks for telling me through another person you
no longer would wish to speak with me.
Real Mature...
I had reasons i didn't hang out with you.
So whatever, you ignored me for months
and then all of a sudden you want to hang out...
Please.... Bullshit.....
You fucked things up... not me.
I will have you know...
that the reasons why i didn't see you...
whatever, beleive what you wish...

Good bye... but don't expect me running back to you... i am done.
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(no subject) [Dec. 27th, 2005|04:28 pm]
Holly


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Wicked [Dec. 26th, 2005|07:03 pm]
Holly
[mood |contentcontent]
[music |for good wicked]

No one mourns the Wicked....

This saying it so neat i love it...

I love musicals...

GO SEE RENT...
I am seeing alan in less than 48 hours woot woot woot...
i am excited...
yes yes i am...
woot

love yall happy new year
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Merry Christmas... [Dec. 25th, 2005|04:47 pm]
Holly
[mood |crazycrazy]
[music |one song glory- Rent]

I LOVE RENT...
i got the soundtrack its almost as amazing as the movie...
I wish everyone a very merry christmas...
good luck with the new year...
holly
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(no subject) [Dec. 19th, 2005|06:39 pm]
Holly
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(no subject) [Dec. 16th, 2005|05:12 pm]
Holly
OKAY...
I AM ALITTLE FRUSTRATED...
two more weeks till i can see my BOO
woot
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Done with all....... [Dec. 13th, 2005|06:00 pm]
Holly
[mood |coldcold]
[music |RENT SOUNTRACK~I'll cover you]

So the Jess thing is over.
I am done with it.
It's over for good.
I am cool with it, i have to admit
at first a bit bummed, but i realized...
I am better then the teenage melow dramtic bullshit.
her group EVER so achieves...

Girls...haa fuck um...

I have decided that mine and alans whole realtionship..
is worth it. I love the kid he loves me...
ITS LIKE SUGAR PLUM GUM DROPS ITS JUST EVER SO FUCKING SPECTACULAR.
lol mike tryed to convince me of being a hetro with homosexual desires...
BULLSHIT..
IM BI... THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT..
god damn people... get a grip...

so its done... this whole enchalida is now gone its way back to mexico..
neat shit..

are choir concert was interesting...
i almost hit some stupid freshies...
that thought they were the best thing sence sliced bread...
whatever
homies.. i OUT
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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2005|11:13 am]
Holly
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(no subject) [Dec. 9th, 2005|04:02 pm]
Holly
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