| you never listen |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|07:15 pm] |
You never listen
And today i wish you would have,
other than hurting me, you never listen to me.
I am sick of this...
You spin around me in circle and yet i find i alway must forgive you
though if i had my way i would never listen to you.
I am sick of you.
You make me look like such a fool...
But you never heard my side so who do i think is the real fool?
This is the way that it is.
and though it hurts like hell things have to stay this way...
I wish i could get out of this...
But though i may wish to i know i never will..
I'm not happy and what you put me through on new years was a night mare...
I can't beleive you...
You have such a way of making me feel like such a fucking whore...
I said stop, you said go...
and now i live in regret..
This wasn't the way it was last time what happened?
what did i do wronge?
Why did you slide your hand on my head and make me go down on you?
I said i didn't want....
But you didn't listen to me...
You never do...
Now.. my mother knows... And everyone looks at me as if i am a whore...
maybe i am?
I know a few that would agree with this statement...
You made me feel like this... it isn't fare...
Why? why???
You wouldn't move your hand... i gaged...
on the whole entire plane ride i felt like throwing up..
and when i got home i did....
I can't beleive this shit...
I never thought you would do this to me of all people...
why? why?
You didn't listen you never do...
I said stop and you said go...
so forget it... i am just a fool
Don't cha know...
New years eve... this was what happened and this happened a few other night where i was down in florida... i can't leave him so don't say i should... but i am so lost... people now hate me for not hanging out with them... but i was trying to recover from what happend... this isn;t the last of what happend there was ALOT more... but i can't say some of the rest im not ready to...
don't worry i wasn;t raped...
But... whatever...
and to all of you i didn;t hang out with while i was down there...
im sorry... I had a horrbile time and Alan and I almost split like 7 times...
so hate to break it to all of you that i didn;t see this was on my list of things to take of while i was down there... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|07:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | apc | ] |
(VICTORIA)
Thanks for telling me through another person you
no longer would wish to speak with me.
Real Mature...
I had reasons i didn't hang out with you.
So whatever, you ignored me for months
and then all of a sudden you want to hang out...
Please.... Bullshit.....
You fucked things up... not me.
I will have you know...
that the reasons why i didn't see you...
whatever, beleive what you wish...
Good bye... but don't expect me running back to you... i am done. |
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| Wicked |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|07:03 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | for good wicked | ] |
No one mourns the Wicked....
This saying it so neat i love it...
I love musicals...
GO SEE RENT...
I am seeing alan in less than 48 hours woot woot woot...
i am excited...
yes yes i am...
woot
love yall happy new year |
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| Merry Christmas... |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|04:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | one song glory- Rent | ] |
I LOVE RENT...
i got the soundtrack its almost as amazing as the movie...
I wish everyone a very merry christmas...
good luck with the new year...
holly |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|05:12 pm] |
OKAY...
I AM ALITTLE FRUSTRATED...
two more weeks till i can see my BOO
woot |
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| Done with all....... |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|06:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | RENT SOUNTRACK~I'll cover you | ] |
So the Jess thing is over.
I am done with it.
It's over for good.
I am cool with it, i have to admit
at first a bit bummed, but i realized...
I am better then the teenage melow dramtic bullshit.
her group EVER so achieves...
Girls...haa fuck um...
I have decided that mine and alans whole realtionship..
is worth it. I love the kid he loves me...
ITS LIKE SUGAR PLUM GUM DROPS ITS JUST EVER SO FUCKING SPECTACULAR.
lol mike tryed to convince me of being a hetro with homosexual desires...
BULLSHIT..
IM BI... THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT..
god damn people... get a grip...
so its done... this whole enchalida is now gone its way back to mexico..
neat shit..
are choir concert was interesting...
i almost hit some stupid freshies...
that thought they were the best thing sence sliced bread...
whatever
homies.. i OUT |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|11:13 am] |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|03:33 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | pretty girl~sugarcult | ] |
I LOVE SUGARCULT....
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| School Drama.... |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|06:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | numb | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Hallow~A PERFECT CIRCLE | ] |
Omg... I am not even in this fucking group at school
and they bitch at me for having friends and sticking up for them..
God... what the hell..
This is why i don't hang out with girls
Wayyyyy to much drama... Damn..
I am soo confused about this hole
thing with jess...
god damn this shit man...
I hae Fchs NOW no lie...
errr... Fuck it all..
I hate those little wannabees...
they just hate me cause i am fat. har har har..
haha
Its hilarious though..
I pulled Stevie to the side today and talked to her extreamly maturally
and said Dude this shit NEEDS TO END...
and to leave me out of her fucking myspace...
she just doesn't get it...
then afdter lunch she was like yelling at me
with Katy.... God BITCHES....
NO FUCKING LIE...
i am not a bad person..
I JUST LOVE TO HATE...
it makes me happy...
Stevie... If you happen to EVER...
Read my live Journal...
Fuck you you skank....
SUCK MY LEFT NIPPLE BITCH.
Little skank need to learn the consaquenses of messing me.
and angry rants about them on my L/J is just the smallest
form......
Paige... if you ever read this or kelsie..
I am sorry i am Fucking up your shit...
NEVER MENT TO...
I AM JUST THE HONELY ONE THAT WANTS TO COME
CLEAN WITH MY CRAP...
I hate high school...
errrrrrrrrrrrr
fucking ass piss...
PEOPLE GET A FUCKING GRIP ANFD FIGURE OUT YOU SHIT
B4 I HIT SOMEONE..
and if Katy ever comes up to me again and starts
shit...
hahaha. im not even going to say anything...
God I was fucking mature about this shit...
but fuck it now..
yall want to be bitches..
IM PUTTING ON THE BITCH SHOES...
HERE I GO
PEACE |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|08:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | NiN | ] |
I spent an hour on myspace trying to figure that shit out FUCK IT...
AHHHH
LA...
so today scared me.. i am about to say fuck it to all of her littel friends...
whatever
im done now.. |
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| i am not a pretty girl |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|06:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ahslee simpson~boyfriend | ] |
I am such a loser..
I bought the new ashlee simpson cd hahaha
i really like boyfriend...
its a great beat...
woot woot...
So whatever..
I love Smile empty soul..
its the SHIT..
woot woot woot
I am sick
of my mother..
"Holly we can't get you new black pants for you choir
concert cause we don't have enough money"
me" then whats with the 300 dollar sweater you just bought for yourself"?
her "I needed them for work"
me" whatever"
her"don't give me that attiude"
me" WHATEVER MOM"
fuck it....
errrr she pisses me of
and Lies WAYYYYYYYY
to much.........
suck it whatever...
peace |
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| All Lesbians are angry and i am the angriest one.... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|03:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Indigo girls-galileo | ] |
So, last night i stayed with jess...
haha it was hilarious...
the girl crackes me up...
My mother, is a bitch...
no lie...
I am excited about to florida..
I'm nervous..
I don't know what i will do..
whatever..
Jess, I have no idea what the hell
im gunna do about family
its horrible...
ahhhhhhhh
sometime i think i should carry
around a pillow so i can strangle myself
with it...
ahhh
whatever..
I wish Jansis Joplin was still alive...
shes the SHIT....
tAkE it TaKe AnOtEr pIeCe oF mY HeArT!!!
bye. |
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| HAHAHA love to be loved |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|03:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hole Make me Over | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|07:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Indigo girls-rise up | ] |
I found a Girl haha
shes nice,
My Mother is insane...
No Lie..
I am slowly moving into hit
her then i tend to realize its my mother and thats not
appropraite...
ha
So tomo night i will be out with
The new girl
Shes a sweet heart...
hahaha
Peace out |
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| Much more then ever seen |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|03:58 pm] |
I miss Alan...
He sent me a card yesterday...
I cried....
I talked to toria and lexie yesterday...
It was like old times SORTA...
hmmm wonder if things will ever be the same...
HIGHLY DOUBT IT ....
Made up with Jason last night...
It was suprising...
things turned out alright...
I thought it was neat though...
I have came to the conclusion my family
is a dalusional as an easter bunny on
crack that shits himself at 12 a clock on the weekdays...
its fucked up...
My MOM IS BIPOLAR...
jesus...
It rediculous...
I Have no will power...
I was that kid when i was little
that never fessed up to my mother when i
stole the cookies...
That is why I one am fat
to why i have NOOOOOO will power...
I have a disfunctional life... OHHHH WELLL
I wish that i was interesting...
I am a very bland person....
I am the one that wheres black when every
one else is in color...
ITs rather crazy... maybe... its just life...
life in my own disfuntional way...
hmm starbucks... I love coffee.
other than sex coffee and cigs...
are most likely the only things keeping me sane..
ohhh wait no sex just semi intersting forplay....
well
Good bye
far well
toodels....
If i was a jew |
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| Sick pahhhh |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|04:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nirvana-lithum | ] |
So...
I guess I am ill
I am bored.. sticking around my house is unbelievably
annoying...
So....
Micheal and me I suppose are okay now???
Hmmm Alan continuoulsy worries about me
... its rediculous..
I am getting a turtle soon....
I want to name it Tater Tot..
I watced Garden State for the millionth time last night
its such a good movie..with great music to it to..
The Shins..Smiles..
I saw Speak last night...
errrr They totally cursed the book...
It sucked ass....
I find i am watching more movies lately..
I suppose they teach me somthing that I
could never get from teachers...
I got some crack must go sniff.. PEACE OUT BITCHES...
LOL
LOVE PEACE
PASE THE PIPE PLEASE..
HIPPES WILL RULE THE UNIVERSE |
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| today...blahhhhh |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|06:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Can't Hold Us Down ~~christina aguilera hahahaha thats tooo | ] |
So yesterday i was really sick
And today i felt really sick but i went to school.
My music video group kids are anoying as hell....
there all IDIOTS...
I have Speech coming up where i have to pick my hero??? i have no
idea who the hell i will do...
i will prolly do somthin cleche like martha stweart lol...
Alan and I are good.. better than usual that is...
Micheal and i had a huge fight sunday night in which
he thought we were never going to be friends again...
Crazy kid... hes like my best friend thats a dude...
I haven't really talked to any of my maryland buddies..
makes me sad....
I miss you ellen and Maria...
My mom is getting my tickets for florida next
week......
YAY
I soooo excited...
woop dee doop...
I just popped a huge zit ewwww gross
lol
peace.. laters... love...
Theatre...........
100% Drama nerd.. |
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